Alone...in Japan, with Dr. Seuss?
"I'm afraid that some times
you'll play lonely games too.
Games you can't win
'cause you'll play against you.
All Alone!
Whether you like it or not,
Alone will be something
you'll be quite a lot.
And when you're alone, there's a very good chance
you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won't want to go on."
Dr. Seuss...That man knew what was up...
Alone with an indescribable feeling in my chest...
I have great friends and I love them dearly but yet I'm alone because no one can relate...Like someone picked me up up plopped me right in the middle of Japan with no one and nothing...totally different culture, language, way of life all moving very quickly around me, and then there is me. But I'm not in Japan. I am in front of my computer currently, but on a deeper level I'm in the middle of this huge season change...Funny how God planned to bring someone into my life that would become very important to to during a huge season change and then take them out during another huge season change...trying to make sense of that really...
Anyway back to my dear tongue twisted friend Dr. Seuss...this is some deep stuff. Ups, downs, highs, and lows...all it a catchy sing song type way...I fly along at a happy level until I start to grow again...it used to be the "growing pains" as I call them would wake me up in the night...to each a portion is given...just when I get through me growing in my new portion and feel like I have made connections with people that understand, it happen again...More growing more seasons change but instead of out growing clothes like a child I out grow situations...people...I am by no means mad at God wait a minute strike that I do get mad at God because I don't understand...I just want a physical real person I can trust. I know He allows me to go through times like this alone so I learn to trust Him but I am sorry to say I want more...I want physical...which is what the disciples wanted from Jesus and is why they had such a hard time with his crucifixion and continued to ask without understanding about the kingdom he was to establish (they wanted the physical earthly kingdom)...it wasn't until Jesus showed himself glorified on the road after the resurrection that they really had revelation of what great things Jesus really was talking about (I should probably give scripture ref. for this but right now I am trying to understand my thoughts personally so if you want to know if what I said is legit...pick up your Bible...and read) anyway I digress...
Where was I going...I am sure I had a coherent thought somewhere in that...alone...something you'll be quite a lot...so I am learning I am not alone I have God and He is everything I need...and I am not feeling anything Jesus never felt and then some for him...praise God and thank you Jesus for bearing everything anyone on this earth would ever face (again legit pick up the book)... So I am learning to fully rely on God...why do I chose those particular words? Because I have seen sooo many things with frogs this week and every time I seen one I thought of those words...as we know I do love animal so I notice them everywhere...saw some goats too...completely irrelevant but I was excited...
I have started walking a much different path than loved friends of the past which has put some distance in our connections, I have out grown simple self glorified teachings in search for deeper understanding, and I have realized other things were not yet meant to be...I am lonely and I grow so tired of being the head of everything (surprising epiphany for a control freak I know) Which brings me back to the Japan thing (see I do come full circle) I am too much of a "Jesus Freak" for most "normal people" (namely guys) and not a nice enough christian girl (see the scarlet letters that commonly refer to me as mommy) for good Christian guys...man oh man...now can you see my quandary? Where do I belong
"If everything comes down to love
Then just what am i afraid of
When i call out your name
Something inside awakes in my soul
How quickly i forget I'm yours
(pre-chorus)
I'm not my own
I've been carried by you
All my life
(chorus)
Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
This love sets me free
When my life is like a storm
Rising waters all i want is the shore
You say I'll be OK and
Make it through the rain
You are my shelter from the storm
(pre-chorus)
I'm not my own
I've been carried by you
All my life
(chorus)
Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
This love sets me free
(chorus 2)
Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free
You define my heart's desires
I will sing your praises higher
Cause your love sets me free
Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free"
Really? Yeah really...I am worse than that commercial for Bing! My last statement triggered this in my brain and low and behold it becomes part of my mindless jabbering (mindless jabbering that I am egotistical enough to think somebody or bodies other than myself would care to read)...all of which may I add point back to the fact I belong to God I am never alone if I love Him and He has a plan if I rely on Him...fully ;) So to tie it all back in with the good Dr.
"You'll get mixed up, of course,
as you already know.
You'll get mixed up
with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life's
a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with your left.
And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed.)
KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!"
So easy enough right? JUST TRUST GOD...Man oh man why didn't I think of that! All part of letting go and letting God...98 and 3/4 percent guarenteed...that's on offer that can only be beat by Grace Grace God's Grace Grace that will pardon and cleanse within Grace Grace God's Grace Grace that I greater than all my sin...100% guaranteed or your origianl eternity back...oooh think about that one...YIKES
Goodnight crazy woman...I hope this encourages you when you re-read it
....oh it will I'm sure goodnight
Yup it's that late LOL;)
you'll play lonely games too.
Games you can't win
'cause you'll play against you.
All Alone!
Whether you like it or not,
Alone will be something
you'll be quite a lot.
And when you're alone, there's a very good chance
you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won't want to go on."
Dr. Seuss...That man knew what was up...
Alone with an indescribable feeling in my chest...
I have great friends and I love them dearly but yet I'm alone because no one can relate...Like someone picked me up up plopped me right in the middle of Japan with no one and nothing...totally different culture, language, way of life all moving very quickly around me, and then there is me. But I'm not in Japan. I am in front of my computer currently, but on a deeper level I'm in the middle of this huge season change...Funny how God planned to bring someone into my life that would become very important to to during a huge season change and then take them out during another huge season change...trying to make sense of that really...
Anyway back to my dear tongue twisted friend Dr. Seuss...this is some deep stuff. Ups, downs, highs, and lows...all it a catchy sing song type way...I fly along at a happy level until I start to grow again...it used to be the "growing pains" as I call them would wake me up in the night...to each a portion is given...just when I get through me growing in my new portion and feel like I have made connections with people that understand, it happen again...More growing more seasons change but instead of out growing clothes like a child I out grow situations...people...
Where was I going...I am sure I had a coherent thought somewhere in that...alone...something you'll be quite a lot...so I am learning I am not alone I have God and He is everything I need...and I am not feeling anything Jesus never felt and then some for him...praise God and thank you Jesus for bearing everything anyone on this earth would ever face (again legit pick up the book)... So I am learning to fully rely on God...why do I chose those particular words? Because I have seen sooo many things with frogs this week and every time I seen one I thought of those words...as we know I do love animal so I notice them everywhere...saw some goats too...completely irrelevant but I was excited...
I have started walking a much different path than loved friends of the past which has put some distance in our connections, I have out grown simple self glorified teachings in search for deeper understanding, and I have realized other things were not yet meant to be...I am lonely and I grow so tired of being the head of everything (surprising epiphany for a control freak I know) Which brings me back to the Japan thing (see I do come full circle) I am too much of a "Jesus Freak" for most "normal people" (namely guys) and not a nice enough christian girl (see the scarlet letters that commonly refer to me as mommy) for good Christian guys...man oh man...now can you see my quandary? Where do I belong
"If everything comes down to love
Then just what am i afraid of
When i call out your name
Something inside awakes in my soul
How quickly i forget I'm yours
(pre-chorus)
I'm not my own
I've been carried by you
All my life
(chorus)
Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
This love sets me free
When my life is like a storm
Rising waters all i want is the shore
You say I'll be OK and
Make it through the rain
You are my shelter from the storm
(pre-chorus)
I'm not my own
I've been carried by you
All my life
(chorus)
Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
This love sets me free
(chorus 2)
Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free
You define my heart's desires
I will sing your praises higher
Cause your love sets me free
Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free"
Really? Yeah really...I am worse than that commercial for Bing! My last statement triggered this in my brain and low and behold it becomes part of my mindless jabbering (mindless jabbering that I am egotistical enough to think somebody or bodies other than myself would care to read)...all of which may I add point back to the fact I belong to God I am never alone if I love Him and He has a plan if I rely on Him...fully ;) So to tie it all back in with the good Dr.
"You'll get mixed up, of course,
as you already know.
You'll get mixed up
with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life's
a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with your left.
And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed.)
KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!"
So easy enough right? JUST TRUST GOD...Man oh man why didn't I think of that! All part of letting go and letting God...98 and 3/4 percent guarenteed...that's on offer that can only be beat by Grace Grace God's Grace Grace that will pardon and cleanse within Grace Grace God's Grace Grace that I greater than all my sin...100% guaranteed or your origianl eternity back...oooh think about that one...YIKES
Goodnight crazy woman...I hope this encourages you when you re-read it
....oh it will I'm sure goodnight
Yup it's that late LOL;)
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